Okay, so today I decided to relax in my room to keep a good state of mind. Lol my really mean daughter is here. (She can make the devil cry) On the last post I mentioned briefly about my health not being to good. I am over all healthy athletic and do a LOT of work outside and whatever The Most High puts in front of me. Well lets see.. Cern has been running a lot, there are more and more crazy strong solar flares, there have been soooo many earthquakes that the USGS does not speak of, and I'm sure we can all feel that things are changing and something is getting closer. So these recent health issues could very well be me being sooo sensitive. I have had several dreams showing me in spirit and being in my Grandmas house with maaany rooms and soooo many more cousins than I could think of. I've even dreamed of 2 sides of the family coming to meet me. One was a 5thwave and I was soo eager and happy to do my dance and show out and tell my family around me watch this dance as I danced on down the line in the middle of my distant family that was in the parade with me. I really LOVE dancing. Always have. Its OUR nature. I even dreamed the other night that I was telling my husband that I had to go, that there was no turning back on this one. The dream was about something else but this IS the message that was meant to be received. I'm sure most of you know what these were about. Especially after you understand which dreams are to tell you something. I've had a few more. My daughter has too. Lately I been getting soo fatigued and sooooo dizzy. I even fell out for a second before and was lucky the couch was there. Lol.😄 As I was falling I mumbled something like "what the heck" and for a split second was able to relize I was going down. I could of either went 2 ways twords the fish tank hard or the couch and Thank The Most High I was able to lean in just in time as I was falling to the couch and I didnt even hit my head on the arm. 😂 So really admittingly my health was getting baad. Let me clear this up, WAS. So please dry your beautiful eyes from thinking of saying by to a loved one. Even though it will be good therapy to appreciate those around you better. This is also why I can easy laugh at this PAST health bump. So I was verrrry weak. Weaker than I have ever felt and I once let so called lupus plague me. I really think it was vaccine damage and parasites no joke. Anyways, it was deep inside. From the core. It was like my light was really going away. It was my spirit getting weaker. It came strong. My Husband prayed sooo much for me. (He is such a blessing) Because my daughter was here with the kids we wanted to take them out and get a few thimgs for the kids. All morning while getting ready something kept telling me your not gonna make It. Dont risk goin out today. Youll collapse in front of people you dont want that show. This is it. You cant handle it. So I prayed for strength. When we got to the destination I couldnt stand up. I didnt want to scare my Husband so I didnt mention anything. The whole time I was getting weaker and weaker. My light was almost gone. I There was no more hidding it. My husband seen. He also knows how I am. Ive been undefeated for sooo long even when things were at the worst. He held me and prayed and reminded me. Mind over matter. The Most High is in you and because of that you can do all things. So he helped me out and held on to me as we walked because he KNOWS the show doesnt stop because I chose a weeny moment. Lol It was hard. I couldnt make it. The Most High did grant me enough strength to quickly get through this. The toys Gramma found for these babies they love. So we got home and I had to lay with my Husband 1 last time. We both fell asleep , but my soul was stirred. So I prayed got up and went in the front room to watch my young ones play. I picked up my phone to see if others felt their light going out as I did. I first watched a video of a mans soul leaving his body on camera. I KNOW this. Its happened with me and I can verify I was a ball of light. Well it pulled my soul because its the point where I was. It was coming. I knew. Then I came across a video of native woman giving her NDE after a suicide attempt. THIS IS IT GUYS ! THIS IS THE MESSAGE THIS WHOLE LENGTHY COLUMN IS ABOUT AND WHAT LED ME TO RENEWAL ! ! ☺😃😊😄 She said when she died she heard her family talking trash. That they were talking about how greedy she was for doing that to her self AND NOT THINKING ABOUT THOSE SHE WAS LEAVING BEHIND. She said a man that kept changing into many different colors with eyes like flames (YASHAYA😃☺😊) Came to her and told her, that we were all given a reason to be here and that reason was known way before we had even had a chance to come. OUR VISION FROM THE MOST HIGH ! We alllll have a purpose. Okay we've heard this all before right. Well this made me remember. I remembered my prayer that I had with The Most High. I completely gave up on myself a good thing. Because I really dont care about myself. Just enough to keep serving. My purpose my wants and true desires are to SERVE The Most High. Let the gov try to decapitate me lol THEY CANT TAKE MY LIFE. I ALREADY GAVE GAVE GAVE IT TO THE MOST HIGH. So with this I remembered fully giving myself to Him and declaring it. I remembered my promise to do everything possible to raise my young ones for The Most High and to keep my Husband on track and to DO WHATEVER HE SENDS IN FRONT OF ME no matter what it is and to do my very best at it for Him. Honestly if I'm not serving The Most High what good is my life? He gave me a reason His vision and I AM NOT GONNA LET HIM DOWN ! ! ✊✊✊✊ Ive lived a very long hard life very hard. I know The Most High havingercy on me was going to grant me relief. My promise with Him is waaay more important than a couple years of relief. Who would I be leaving behind?? I love these guys waaay too much to not help them through tough times ! Who can renew your spirit??? So I called on him. We had a great talk and guess what. No more endless fatigue no dizzyness and I'm strong again to the core ! Before you give up think about who would be hurting if you left. Think about how they would stuggle with out you. Dont be greedy ! Have you completed your purpose???? Would you really be okay about taking the easy way and not completing your mission from The Most High??