A few weeks ago, many of my pains were unveiled to me. I didn't know how many they were, but I knew they were there. These were demons that I use to let slide by, because battling them was tiring and there was no rest from it.
The Father wanted to increase, so he forced me to decrease.
I was at my job, when I had a small slip up in doing something. I forget exactly what it was, but it was something small. It bugged my spirit so badly that my flesh became weak.
My emotions felt like they were draining, and many repressed memories were flooding my mind. Many evil emotions flooded me, but they did drain with the good after the good ones had been lost in tears.
An old feeling came back. One that I never expressed, but it was still there. I thought it had left me when I found Christ, but it was simply waiting to be let go.
My prayer was similar to the following,
Father, I can't handle this feeling. It feels like I am drained and I can't get through the rest of the day. People need me here, and my break is not much longer. I lied so much and I hurt so many people. I feel like my words are as empty as my heart.
The Most High healed my heart, body, spirit, and soul enough so that I could get through the rest of my shift without bothering my coworkers.
I sat in meditation in these past few days and HaWaH spoke.
He said,
How does your heart feel?
I responded that it felt heavy like it has much weight.
He responded,
And thus are your words.
Proverbs 18:21;
21Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.
Proverbs 10:20,21,31;
Proverbs 18:4-7;
Proverbs 11:30;
The fruit of the righteous is a tree of life; and he that winneth souls is wise.
Matthew 12:35-37;
35A good man out of the good treasure of the heart bringeth forth good things: and an evil man out of the evil treasure bringeth forth evil things.
36But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment. 37For by thy words thou shalt be justified, and by thy words thou shalt be condemned.
Roman's 10:14,15;
2 Corinthians 2:16;
2 Corinthians 11:15;
Ephesians 4:29;
Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers.
Colossians 4:6;
Let your speech be alway with grace, seasoned with salt, that ye may know how ye ought to answer every man.
Titus 1:10,11;
James 3:6-9;
2 Peter 2:18;
Proverbs 10:19;
Ecclesiastes 10:12-14;
Isaiah 57:19
This spoke to my spirit, thank you for sharing this.
Thank you my young Wise Brother.
I really needed this.