In 2013 my depressions was bad, smoking weed heavy, gluttony, pornography, EVERYDAY. I was uneployed at the time, collecting unemployment checks and selling weed, but at home all day, isolated and depressed without even knowing what was going on.
Even though I was high and thought I was ok as long as I had some weed and a few friends, deep down I know I was meant for a better life. One night I was so tired of my life I cried out to the God my great grandmother, and grandmother always talked about. I cried out and repented. The next day I didn't feel any different, but I know now, God went to work because of what I have been lead through since.
I didn't get sent to a church right away, I did research into why the world was so jacked up, and why It seemed set up to keep people down. I went deep down the rabbit hole and came to a, i guess i can call it a revelation. That "aliens"/ "fallen angels"/ "secret societies" had control of government, media, and all parts of a big system. This scared me so much I took a big hit of hasheesh just to go to sleep and not think about it anymore. That backfired and just made my heart race more. Paranoia hit so hard, I called the cops on myself and was 5150'd. Put on a psychiatric hold. This, what they called drug induced schizophrenia, and hospitalizations, I was in and out of for a like a year and a half.
I now know that i couldn't handle that information because I didnt know the Gospel of Christ and had no roots in it. I heard of him, He lives in my great grandmother so I had that seed, but it was never watered. Just a little bit here and there. But I didnt grow up in church or ever had a Godly man in my life.
So God sent me through a mental health journey, learning about depression, what drug use and pornography can do to the brain. It helped but I still dealt with depression. Took some psych meds, but wouldn't take them long. They make you feel jacked up. I would start smoking weed again. Then God led me to a job, where I was lead to a girl, who introduced me to a christian church. I grew in this church. I developed a relationship with God, slowly He was removing depression, weed, pornography. While in this Christian church though, I would go through these cycles of living off the preachings and encounters on Sundays and Wednesdays but then losing again eventually. Free for sometime but then bound again. Wasn't able to get anything from reading the bible but frustration.
I was lead to leave that Christian Church a month ago and was introduced to One Nation One Power by a coworker. An anointed church that is talking about things that line up with my spirit, and no other churches seem to be talking about. In just this last month I am reading more than I have ever. The sealed portion breaks it down so much. In the Christian church I tried reading so hard but I couldn't. Now i have the freedom to follow the spirit and it takes me where to read. I'll watch elder Ayuyl and the spirit is on him, cuz I am so into the topics that he brings up.
The Most High has protected me the whole time I was walking in the world, could've died many times, and that moment when I cried out he heard me, and lead me into a journey closer and closer to him. He baptized me in the spirit in 2018 and I am so grateful to be set free from my sin and the yoke of mans precepts, to hear and be obedient to The Holy Spirit. I look forward to more time in ONOP, More time in being lead by the Spirit into more wisdom and understanding, to do Gods will through my life.
Be blessed my Brothers and Sisters. He Loves you and He hears you. Take that time to listen for him, and be obedient to what He says. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE
Great testimony