Allowing the Most High to work in my life

It's crazy wild how the Elder and Big Judah is coming out with this information . I believe the Most High was showing me this years ago but I couldn't receive it cause my mind was warped up in religion. I had a Mormon book for research in 2014, and in the back of my mind I was thinking they were talking bout us but I was still stuck on what I was taught, oh my God I was doubting what the Holy Spirit of God was trying to show me. I once had a book called Yaweh but it didn't have the vowels in the name and the book was all white and it had gold praying hands on the cover with balls of fire in them. I through that book away for it was demonic to me trying to get me to focus on pictures inside the book. One of the pages had a picture of men in a circle meditating with blonde long hair with rainbow color pants on saying this is the world's next phase of consciousness, and had a page with a picture of a white man with blonde hair and a cape on with the rainbow pants talking bout meditate on this . It had angels in the book and spoke about the order of Machezidek and the order of Christ I was like nope time to get this away from me cause this is not right and it funny I came across this book two times and it's no where to be found but I realize those pictures represented the enemy plans the LGBT and many other things . I have had some crazy experiences along my journey. I was the happy in Prison and that's crazy to say to a lot of people but that's the time I had the closet relationship with the Most High meditating was my thing I experience Him or a Angel or something showing me 3 planets I don't remember what they said at the time but I do remember o e was green and another one was red. I had dreams where angels were flying in towards a desert mountain that looked barren and one of the angels had a broken wing and the enemies look like hairy humanoid monsters running up that mountain to do battle. It so much more I can share. Im just a work in progress open and willing for the Most High to allow me in His presence to come to the orders of my mission again. Shalom